musical box:
a box or case containing an apparatus
for producing music mechanically, as
by means of a comblike steel plate with
tuned teeth sounded by small pegs or
pins in the surface of a revolving cylinder
or disk.

musical box. my greatest fetish.
i owned three. one, belongs to mummy.
and another to mummy's mummy.
the intricate carvings on the exterior seals
away the mechanism that produces the
heavenly tune. a tune by angels.
a different tune depicts a different emotion.
a different box tells a different story.

i remembered i once told mx and tiff
that whoever wants to marry me would
have to buy my the world's prettiest musical
box for me and proposed to me in a large
human size musical box. (:
at that song, would be our story.

was walking around at great world today,
when i chanced upon a musical box with a
pretty tune. that brought about my chain
of thoughts for this post.
i've been looking for the perfect musical box.
a present to celebrate my independence.
a present for myself. for my twenty first.
but from now till than, i've yet to find one.
i really wanted one this birthday.

sometimes, i would just sit in front of my closet
and listen to the melody on the musical box
for hours. enticing, enchanting and alluring.

planning for a getaway is TOUGH.
tough is such an understatement.
gotta decide when to take off, gotta decide
where to go, gotta decide where to stay,
gotta decide what to do there, gotta decide
when to come home (i hope never.)

being with someone for a period of time,
turns me into a different person.
i'll tend to rely on that person more.
something which i'm afraid of.
i'm afraid that i'll no longer how to survive
on my own. be by myself.
because all i want is to be with him.
there's a well said saying that goes,
"do not be with someone you can live with
but be with someone that you cant live
without." and that's him.
but then again, being a couple means that
both parties should rely on each other.
thats why, two is better than one.
just like how i wish C would rely on me too.

as much as i wanna spend every single
second and minute with C.
i have to give him his freedom too.
he needs to be with other people other
than me. and i would never take this
freedom away from him.
i'll never wanna confine him to my cages.
he may disallow me to go out with my
guy friends but i still have my girls.
i'm not someone who will be at your
beck and call but if you need me, just pick
up the phone and call me. dont hesitate.
and i will be with you very soon.
i'm not one who gives empty promises.
i assure you.


/ dont promise me that you'll love me
forever, just show me you really do.
fourteen days.